5 Weeks

You may not look pregnant at this point but your embryo's heart, no bigger than a poppyseed, has already begun to beat and pump blood. The heart is dividing into chambers and will find a more regular rhythm soon. The embryo itself is about a quarter of an inch/ half a centimetre long and looks more like a tadpole than a human. It undergoes a growth spurt this week.

Major organs, including the kidneys and liver, begin to grow. The neural tube, which connects the brain and spinal cord, will close this week. The embryo's upper and lower limb buds begin to sprout -- these will form your baby's arms and legs. The intestines are developing and the appendix is in place.

Below the opening that will later form your baby's mouth, small folds exist where the neck and the lower jaw eventually develop. As early as this week, facial features are already forming. Nostrils are becoming distinct and the earliest version of the eyes' retinas are forming.

My digi test!!!

It's still sinking in!!!

OMG!!! I'm Pregnant!!!!!!!

OMG!!!!!! I can't believe I am finally typing this but at last I am PREGNANT!!! Yipeeeee!!!!!!! We are over the moon!!!

I did a first response last Wednesday which was negative and I thought it was over and was just waiting for AF to show up to start again!! AF never arrived Thursday or Friday and when it still hadn't arrived yesterday and my (.Y.) were absolutely killing me and I was feeling nauseous I went and bought another test in Superdrug which gave me a faint positive.

So this morning I went to Asda and bought a clear blue digital pregnancy test and after a nervous wait which seemed to last forever but was probably only a minute or so it came up with the magical words 'Pregnant 1 - 2'. I can't believe it!! I am so happy!! I was gagging a bit going round Asda this morning so hoped it would confirm the pregnancy.

I will add a picture of the test once Vic gets home with the camera. I am walking on air at the moment. I just hope I have a good pregnancy and get to meet my little one around the 29th January 2010 I think. Fingers crossed everything goes to plan!!

I can't believe this is no longer a ttc diary but a proper pregnancy one!! I hope it gives hope to other women on Clomid that Clomid can work its magic.

No sign of AF yet!!!

CD 27

AF normally starts early on day 27 but nothing so far. Since I have been on Clomid have had 26/27 day cycles without fail so am wondering when she is going to show as I have no symptoms that she is on her way yet.

Am determined not to get my hopes up as surely if I was pregnant then the first response test I did on Wednesday would have showed it wouldn't it?

I am obviously hoping af stays away but I won't be doing any more pregnancy tests until Monday at the earliest if it stays away that long. I know if it doesn't arrive tomorrow I will definitely be wondering what's happened to it this month.

Oh well, I can only hope!!!

Expecting AF tomorrow!!

CD 26

Nothing much to report. Am expecting AF to start tomorrow. I just want to get going on this last cycle now.

I rang my doctors for an appointment and there was none available with my doctor so have to try ringing on Tuesday morning early to see if I can get an appointment on the day. I am hoping he will send me for a blood test on CD21 again so I can check I have ov. I have to have a blood test around then for my iron levels so shouldn't be too much hassle for them to check.

Can't remember if I updated what my iron levels were after the last blood test a few weeks ago but they had gone up slightly to 9.6 and I have to have them done again in a few weeks.

Hopefully AF will arrive soon so we can get on with it!!

Worse day so far!!!

I don't why on earth I keep putting myself through this. I hate it. Every month is the same. I get my hopes raised only to be brought back down to earth extremely harshly with an almighty bump. I suppose really I shouldn't torment myself by doing tests but I can't help it. I find it impossible to hold back in the 2nd week of the 2 week wait.

I did a first response test straight away when I got up this morning and it was horrible Big Fat Negative. I was devastated and got back into bed for a cuddle with dh. He cuddled me and just let me cry it out which was what I needed I think. Then I had to plaster a happy face on for the kids and get them ready for school.

I chatted to a good friend on facebook this morning and she has made me feel better about things and put a smile back on my face for a little while. She has been through Clomid before but unfortunately it didn't work for her and she has accepted that she will never have any children. I really don't think I could accept that but I suppose there will come a time when I think enough is enough and take a break but I can't see that happening at the moment.

I am so desperate for another baby. I just cannot imagine life without another one. I was watching Josh & Ellie playing with a little baby on Saturday and even help give her a bottle and I really want them to be able to do that with their own brother or sister. I just hope we get there some day soon as it is starting to eat away at me now.

I thought I had done really well this month too concentrating on losing weight but it always gets so hard to think of anything else in the 2 week wait.

Am feeling lousy too now and am just waiting for af to show up so I can get on with the next month of Clomid. This is the last month I have tablets for so am going to try and get in to see my doctor over the next week or so to see if he will prescribe me some more. I am really scared he will say no and then I don't know what I will do. Dh has said he doesn't want to go down the more invasive routes of iui or ivf plus we haven't the money to do it either so that's out. I just hope it works soon cos each month is like ripping my heart out.

I'll update again when either I can post something more positive or I go to the doctors.

Hoping for a BFP!!

CD 24 - 10/11 days after ov

I just tested with an ebay cheapie ovulation test as I have read how they can pick up pregnancy HCG levels and I got a positive!!!! It came up just within the 5 minutes.

I am trying so hard not to get my hopes up in case there is some mistake but am failing miserably.

I didn't use fmu but decided to test after needing to go for a wee loads, (.Y.) still aching but especially nips lol!! I am so absolutely shattered too even though I am not really doing anything in the daytime whilst the kids are at school. Also I weighed in this morning and have put on 2lb!! Not fair when I have been so good!!

I have felt nauseous for the last few days and today it is lasting much longer and I do feel as though I do actually want to be sick!!

When I was pregnant with both ds10 and dd6 I had terrible morning sickness from 6 weeks to 16 weeks and was in and out of the hospital on a drip with Hyperemesis Gravidarum as I could not keep anything down. At the time it felt like hell on earth but it is a good sign and if I am pregnant then I will be worried if I am not sick.

I have one first response test and 2 boots pregnancy tests upstairs but not sure when to use them. Will definitely wait till at least tomorrow so can test with fmu. I am worried about wasting them though but af is due Friday so surely it wouldn't be too early to test?

Argh!! I wish I could fast forward time by 24 hours then I would know either way for definite as I am not sure whether to trust the ebay cheapie or not.

Please let this be it as I don't think I can take anymore. I really hope I am pregnant at last and its a sticky one.

All I can do I guess is wait till tomorrow!! Wish me luck!! Will update again first thing in the morning!!