Negative OPK's So Far!!

CD 13

Starting to worry now I still haven't had a +ve OPK test yet. My last 2 cycles have been 26 and 27 days so starting to think that the last 3 months have been a waste of time and I am still not ovulating.

I am having my 21 day bloods redone a week tomorrow so will find out for definite then. I suppose at least my doctor can increase the dose of Clomid and that might help things but what if it doesn't.

There is only a limited amount of time you can take clomid for so I feel that if I'm still not ovulating then it is a waste of 3 months and I will ask to be monitored next cycle to make sure it works.

I know that I could still OV this cycle but not holding out much hope!! Sorry this is a bit of negative post.

On a slightly better note have made up a little with my family. Still not talking to my brother though. Hopefully they won't be interfering as much as they usually do from now on!!

Psychic Prediction!!

I read on a ttc forum about Jenny Renny and I decided to have a reading. It cost $8 and this is what my reading said:

"Your reading reveals that your BFP news comes the month of April. The baby shows as a boy and his EDD/birthdate is referenced the month of January 2010 - specific reference to the 10th."

So we will see if this is right next month.

I would love to get pregnant this month though. I have been doing OPKs since yesterday and they are negative so far as expected. I hope to get a positive by Wednesday otherwise I doubt I am ovulating but am not too worried as if not the doctor will up my dose of Clomid after my day 21 blood tests if it shows I'm not ovulating if this is the case so April could be my month instead.

AF is due on 31st March so fingers crossed for this month. Or failing that next month. I would love to be holding our new baby by Christmas.

I hope I haven't much longer to wait for a BFP. DH and I were talking earlier and have agreed (but I reserve the right to change my mind lol) that should things not work out with the Clomid then we won't take things further as in going down the IVF route. DH doesn't want us to put ourselves or the kids through it so fingers crossed the Clomid works. I am a bit scared of it too but hopefully everything will be ok.

Sending lots of babydust to everyone ttc xx

Ordered OPKs

I have been naughty and ordered some OPKs of ebay. Hopefully they should arrive with the post today and then I can start using them from tomorrow. I'm currently on cd 9 so probably a little early to start but don't want to miss it if I am ovulating. At the very least it should satisfy my poas addiction much more cheaply then buying first response all the time!!

Am having my blood test a week on Wednesday so that will confirm then whether I am ovulating or not and if not then I think the doctor will up the dose of Clomid.

The plan is to do lots of babydancing this month in the hope it works as I'd love to be holding our baby by Christmas.

I haven't heard from any of my family since Monday. So we're still not speaking. I haven't the energy to worry about it. I seem to be in a cycle at the moment of waking at 7am and by 9pm I am ready for bed and am exhausted. Fortunately the last few nights when I've gone to bed so has dh.

Fingers crossed I ov this month anyway.

A Normal Cycle at last!!

AF finished today so lasted 5 days and was not even a fraction as heavy as last month, or come to think of it any month in the last 2 years lol. It was just like what a 'normal' af should be so hopefully that means the Clomid is helping sort things out again plus I have been trying to be healthier and eating more fruit and veg and drinking more water and also doing a lot more walking too.

Looking forward to getting lots of babydancing done this month and fingers crossed it will be a good month.

Have had a major falling out with my family over the last few days. It started as an arguement with my younger brother on Friday and has escalated into a huge row where everyone has sided with him and no one can see him for the arrogant t*at that he is!! Then again he has always been the baby of the family and the perfect son who can do no wrong but has been cheating on his girlfriend for at least the last 4 months. The arguement was originally about him giving us a lift to the dentist last friday. I never asked for a lift he offered and then he turned all moody and started going on at me about buying a car so he doesn't have to take me. I pointed out I never asked for a lift and he went on and on and started swearing with the kids in the back of the car. I told him to let me and the kids out but he wouldn't stop for us to get out and by the time we got to the dentist I was in tears and the kids were comforting me. Dh found out about and offered to go round and 'sort him out' but managed to persuade him not to as dh is 5'6 and my brother is 6'4 and huge!!

My sister lives next door and has sent me emails today accusing me of ruining her birthday because I have said we won't be attending her birthday party in 2 weeks time. She's like a big kid. She slammed her car door and front door when she got home and she has her tv on full blast too at the moment but am not bothered. Going out in a bit for a pint with dh whilst we wait for Ellie at rainbows.

So am looking forward to moving hopefully asap now as my family are driving me nuts. If they are not arguing they are interfering and I can't be doing with it anymore. I am sick and tired of it. Dh's brother has just moved back into his caravan at Marton Mere (still in Blackpool) so might see if we can go and stay for a few days and have a little break.

Onto Month 3

Well AF has started properly now so officially on CD 1 of Month 3 on Clomid.

I went to the doctor's this afternoon and he seemed to think I was anaemic as he said I look very pale and I said how shattered I had felt this last few weeks. We had a discussion of how the Clomid is going. He has given me a slip to get my 21 day bloods redone this month and also to check my iron levels.

In the meantime he wants me to eat more red meat. When he asked me if I eat red meat I stupidly replied 'yes I eat a lot of chicken!!' Duh!! I'm so stupid!! Dh was with me and was trying not to laugh and the doctor said I meant steak and beef. I just wanted the ground to open up and swallow me. It was so embarrassing. Thankfully our doctor's really nice although he probably thinks I'm a bit dim now lol!!

Anyway the doctor says that as my cycle has become more regular that is a good sign that my ovaries are getting to work and so will have the 21 day bloods done again to see if its improved and if not then he can increase my clomid dose as I'm only on 50mg for days 2-6 at the moment.

I've told dh we are going at it hammer and tongue this month and he isn't complaining lol!! I will resist the urge to do opk's for this month anyway and wait and see what the blood tests say. I feel I am becoming addicted to buying pregnancy tests so it will become an even more expensive habit getting hooked on opk's as well!

Fingers (but not legs!) crossed it works this month!!

Think AF is on the way!

I think AF is on the way but I am surprisingly ok about it this time. I had a really good talk with dh last night after I got another negative result with a first response. He believes that we will have another child one day be it in a month (yes please!!) 10 months or 10 years (please god don't make me wait that long!!)

I thought AF had started first thing this morning but it seems to have stopped again but am off to the doctor's anyway later this afternoon as I have a strange rash at the bottom of both my legs that has been getting more and more itchy and is starting to drive me made wanting to scratch. It is the same doc that prescribed me the clomid so hopefully can have a chat about that too whilst I'm there and see how its going.

Will update later this evening anyway as going out now.

Day 26 of Month 2 on Clomid

Today I have very sore (.Y.) which I don't usually get when I am awaiting af. I remember that's what gave me a big hint that I was pregnant with Ellie. I have also been absolutely shattered for about the last week now and have been in bed by 9pm each night and asleep within minutes. I've also been having very strange dreams lately. If I normally dream then I never remember them usually but at the moment I seem to be having very realistic ones.

DH said the other night my legs were shaking so much whilst I was asleep he thought I was having a dream. I asked why he didn't wake me up and he said he didn't incase it was a nice dream. It wasn't! I was having a nightmare about snakes!! So would have been more than happy to have been woken up.

I had a dream last night that we were going to New Zealand for a week (yeah like you'd fly half way across the world for a week's holiday!!) and I was nearly at the airport and I realised that I had left dh and the kids behind!! I was distraught and had to go back for them!!

I really hope that my body isn't playing tricks on me and that I am pregnant. I am holding off til tomorrow at the earliest before I do another test. Do you think that's long enough to wait? I did a first response on Sunday morning and that was a BFN!! If I can last I'll try and wait til Thursday but will see if I can last that long.

Tomorrow I am taking the kids to our local theatre to see two performances of the 'Horrible Histories'. In the morning we will be watching 'The Frightful First World War' and then in the evening (hopefully I can stay awake long enough!) to see 'The Woeful Second World War'. They are really looking forward to it.

DH asked me earlier what I would do if I found out I was pregnant now and I said I'd run around the house screaming with joy!! His answer was he'd be the happiest man in the world. He says he really can't wait for us to have another so please god if you're listening please make our dreams come true!!