False Alarm!!

Well that was a false alarm!! I thought my cycle was starting again on Tuesday and was building myself up ready to start my Clomid tablets on New Years Eve when it had stopped again on Wednesday as quickly as it had started so haven't took my tablets yet as I read online that you should be sure it is definitely the right time of the month to take them so I continue waiting to get going on them.

In the meantime dh and I have been having lots of fun (ahem!) He doesn't know whats hit him lol!! I was in boots today and was very nearly tempted by the Ovulation Prediction Sticks but I decided to leave it to the Clomid to hopefully work its magic and get me ovulating again. I didn't want to start feeling dispondant if I kept getting negatives and we're having fun doing lots of trying and I don't want to lose that if possible by making it anymore medical than I have to at the moment. I guess I might start looking into that in a few months if things don't happen or maybe temping but we shall see. In the meantime I am trying to stay as relaxed as possible about it all.

At least I know my doctor is being great keeping an eye on me and if I'm not pregnant within 3 cycles on the Clomid he will send me for another blood test to check I am ovulating.

I was also looking at the baby clothes in Marks & Spencers today too. They are so cute!! I hope I can start looking at them for real soon.

I am thinking of ordering a Zita West book off Amazon but I meant to check it out in Waterstones today but I was with my mother and I don't want to tell her we are going down the Clomid route as she would drive me up the wall asking if I was pregnant yet all the time. She doesn't even know we are trying for another. I hope when Ellie is all grown up that we can talk. I have never felt able to talk to my mother and we aren't very close. I remember when I was about 12 and started my periods I didn't tell her for about 6 months til she realised but my family are not like that they do not hug each other or talk about feelings and personal stuff. Thankfully me and Vic are and we are always hugging and kissing the kids and each other. I really hope that as the kids grow older that they know that they can talk to us both about anything and everything.

We are very open with both the kids about sex and everything. Josh was funny over Christmas giving us a surprisingly accurate description of sex. He seems to know lots about how babies are made already and his facts are fairly spot on. Not sure where he gets his information from though but it is correct lol!!